Well here I am wide awake early, early in the A.M....gosh I heard of insomnia but this is just plain nuts ....I have went to doctor after doctor about this too and they all say the same thing, relieve my stress and it will all correct itself ....YEAH RIGHT ...now how am I supposed to relieve my stress when my life IS stress . Usually this is the time when I am a thinking mode and I tend to sit and think, think, and think way to much to the point it depresses me and then I end up in tears ... , so I really wish that I could sleep at nite because that way I won't be able to think and get all depressed and upset about my current circumstances in my life. There are alot of days where I just have to say to myself ...."Well it sure beats Hell"..... .

Last nite ...(meaning Thursday nite) I got to talk to my sweetie online and we had a pretty good conversation until I took something he said in the wrong way ....I just seem to misconstrue alot that he says over the computer, it's really hard to read him online ....I need to really start evaulating things a little bit better instead of jumping to the wrong conclusions and getting upset over it .....I am just to overly sensitive and I wish I could be less sensitive ....but that would mean turning into a man LOL....( not to say there aren't sensitive guys out there cause I know there are   but you know what I mean LOL. Then about the last half hour or so of our conversation we get interrupted by my best friend's 16 year old kid .....now he is like a son to me but last nite I wanted to beat him ...not that I would do that but I just need to vent because he was acting like one spoiled brat last nite and I was about ready to pull my hair out because I was sooo frustrated . So needless to say he kind of ruined the evening and I wasn't happy about it.

But my day went much better than my nite .....so thank goodness for one small miracle . I was busy though ....that is why I can't get why I am not tired ...I should be sleeping at this hour  but noooo I am wide awake . And I have tried everything from aroma therapy to drinking warm milk to taking a warm bubble bath, to putting nature Cd's on in my bedroom and doing relaxation techniques ...nothing works and it's frustrating  The only thing I haven't done is sleeping pills ....and I am not so sure if that is a good idea or not so I haven't even talked to my doctor about it yet. Oh well I guess I will just have to deal with it as best as I can. I just have to learn how to go with the flow as my 15 year old niece would say LOL.....

My niece sent me this name acronym generator thingy LOL ....intereesting words that it came up with from my name....and I have to say interestingly true with some of it.